“Much of your pain is self-chosen,” says Kahlil Gibran in his marvellous book The Prophet.
“Your pain is psychological,” doctors said again and again, ever since that accident in 1973…
And what do I think?
I can call it ‘fascinating’ how my body is inventive at creating pains.
I can call it ‘amazing’ how I never know where what will hurt when I walk or move.
And it does not matter what I call it. For it just hurts. This way and that way, here and there.
What have I been learning?
It began with minimising the number of steps, when I was walking with crutches.
It continued with the search for ‘remedies’ and alternatives, physical, psychological and energetic.
And it is an eternal path of self-awareness that has opened:
- who am I who is hurting?
- what is pain, if not the other extreme of pleasure?
- how far do I go to avoid hurt?
- what happened when I ‘overdid’ it?
- why did I not know my limits of endurance?
Because my body is as open-ended as Life is. (more…)